[blue] HEY EVERYONE
[purple] I have learned that life is like a game, one that at times it seems really hard
to beat. i have learned that people change and not always for the good but i don’t think
that changing in the hard part, i think the hard part is knowing what to do with who you
have become. I am a believer that things happen for a reason even if we don’t know what
that reason is. I have learned that people come and go and that there is nothing you can
do to make someone stay even if you don’t want them to leave. I think that everyone is
beautiful in their own way even though others might not see it.
[orange] The thing about me is that what you see is what you get. I am not fake and i
never pretend to be someone that i am not. I use to care about what other people thought
about me but I have learned that what they think about me doesn’t make me who I am.
[green] I was truely blessed about 2 years ago when my sister gave birth to my nephew
julian. I never knew just how much a child could change the way you view life. i know that
when i look at julian and no matter what I am feeling just one smile from him takes away
all the pain and even though it might not say away for good five minutes seems like a
lifetime.
suddenly everything in life that we find unapealing a child sees with sparkles in there
eyes. And for that i am blessed that i have a chance to know him and be apart of his life.
I love you julian
and you will always be Auntie’s Boy
[blue]
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[red] My family might seem a little messed up but in the end they will always be my family
and after all we only get one. You can’t choose who your family is but you can choose how
you treat them. so hold on to what is dear to you and don’t take it for granted because in
the wink of an eye it could disapear and never come back.
[blue] TO ALL MY FRIENDS I LOVE YOU GUYS AND I AM GLAD THAT YOU ARE IN MY LIFE.
********************LiFe***********************
[purple]I AM FIGHTING TO BELIEVE IN MYSELF
SOMETHING I HAVE NEVER DONE
AND RIGHT NOW I NEED TO FIND AWAY
TO REACH THE ANSWERS ON THE SUN
MAYBE I DONT GIVE MYSELF ENOUGH CREDIT
FOR ALL THE THINGS THAT I HAVE DONE RIGHT
AND I NOW KNOW THAT THE REMEDY TO MY IMAGININGS
ARE THERE WHEN I AM DREAMING LATE AT NIGHT
SOMEONE MADE ME REALIZE
THAT I AM WORTH MORE THEN I BELIEVE
AND THAT I HAVE TO LEARN TO TEACH MY HEART
TO NOT BE DAMM NAIEVE
I NOW KNOW IT IS OK TO SMILE
AND HOLD MY HEAD UP HIGH
THAT I HAVE TO LET GO OF MY SORROW
OR LIFE WILL PASS ME BY
This is the song that i feel relates to how I feel a lot
it is by 3 doors down
Away From The Sun, you know when you feel something but it is hear to put into words well
this is what i feel without having to say a thing
[orange]It’s down to this
I’ve got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I’ve done
I miss the life
I miss the colors of the world
Can anyone tell where I am
’Cause now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again
I’m over this
I’m tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling’s gone
There’s nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know
’Cause now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I’m so far down, away from the sun again
It’s down to this
I’ve got to make this life make sense
And now I can’t tell what I’ve done
And now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
’Cause now again I’ve found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I’m so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I’m so far down, away from the sun again
_./’\._, ,.·**·.[blue]WiSh,.·**·..**
*·. .·*’ .·**·.**.’[purple]UpOn
/.·*·.\ *.·**[red]A sTaR·.,,.·**·.*
XxXxX LAYER ONE XxXxX
[purple]-x-Name:[blue] -x-AyRiN
[blue] -x-Mood: [purple]- UnSuRe-x-
[purple]--x- Listening To: [blue] ReGgAe-x-
[blue] -x- Birth date: [purple]- JuLy 10Th 1983-x-
[purple]--x- Birthplace: [blue] ScArBoRoUgH, OnT-x-
[blue] -x- Hair Color: [purple]- ChErRy ReD-x-
[purple]--x- Eye Color: [blue] BlUe-x-
[blue] -x- Height: [purple]-5’4-x-
[purple]--x- Righty or Lefty: [blue] RiGhTy -x-
[blue] -x- Zodiac Sign: [purple]- CaNcEr -x-
XxXxXLAYER TWOXxXxX
[purple]--x- Your Heritage: [blue] IrIsH aNd ScOtIsH -x-
[blue] -x- The shoes you wore today: [purple]- x-BlUe- x-
[purple]--x- Your weakness: [blue] Trusting People-x-
[blue] -x- Your fears: [purple]- that i will stop believing in myself -x-
[purple]--x- Your perfect pizza: [blue] ChEeSe AnD cHiCkEn * -x-
[blue] -x- Goal you’d like to achieve: [purple]-FiNdInG tRuE hApPiNeSs
-x-
LAYER THREE
[purple]-Your most overused phrase on MSN: [blue] lol-x-
[blue] Your thoughts first waking up: [purple]- AlReaDy
[purple]-Your best physical feature: [blue] Eyes
[blue] Your bedtime: [purple]- don’t HaVe OnE
[purple]-Your most missed memory: [blue] The day my nephew was born
[blue] Grossest Thing You Ever Ate: [purple]- shROoMs
LAYER FOUR
[purple]-Pepsi or Coke: [blue] CoKe
[blue] McDonald’s or Burger King: [purple]- McDoNaLdS-x-
[purple]-Single or group dates: [blue] SiNgLe AnD GroUp
[blue] Adidas or Nike: [purple]- NiKe
[purple]-Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: [blue] NeStEa
[blue] Chocolate or vanilla: [purple]- VaNiLlA
[purple]-Cappuccino or coffee: [blue] CoFfEe
LAYER FIVE
[blue] Smoke: [purple]- YeS
[purple]-Cuss: [blue] No FuCkIn WaY
[blue] Sing: [purple]-AlL tHe TiMe
[purple]-Take a shower everyday: [blue] YeS
[blue] Have a crush: [purple]-YeS...shhhh don't tell anyone
[purple]-Do you think you’ve been in love: [blue] YeS
[blue] Want to go to college: [purple]- YeS
[purple]-Like high school: [blue] I dId YeS
[blue] Want to get married: [purple]- SoMeDaY
[purple]-Believe in yourself: [blue] I nOw BeLiEvE iN mYselF
[blue] Get motion sickness: [purple]- RaReLy
[purple]-Think you’re attractive: [blue] i'll let you deside
[blue] Think you’re a health freak: [purple]- SoMeTiMeS
[purple]-along with your parent(s): [blue] SoMeTiMeS
[blue] Like thunderstorms: [purple]- YeS
[purple]-Play an instrument: [blue] UsE tO
LAYER SIX
In the past month...
[blue] Drank alcohol: [purple]- YeS
[purple]-Smoked: [blue] YeS
[blue] Done a drug: [purple]- YeS
[purple]-Had Sex: No
Made Out: [purple]-No
[purple]-Gone on a date: [blue] yes
[blue] Gone to the mall?: [purple]-YeS
[purple]-Eaten an entire box of Oreos: [blue] NeVeR
[blue] Eaten sushi: [purple]- NeVeR
[purple]-Been on stage: [blue] no
[blue] Been dumped: [purple]- no
[purple]-Gone skating: [blue] No
[blue] Made homemade cookies: [purple]-YeS
[purple]-Gone skinny dipping: [blue] No
[purple]-Dyed your hair: [blue] ummmmm......[blue] Stolen anything: [purple]-No
LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
[purple]-Been trashed or extremely intoxicated:
[blue] YeA
[blue] Been caught "doing something":[purple]- YeS
[purple]-Cried over someone of the opposite sex: [blue] YeAh
[blue] Wanted to tell someone you loved them: [purple]- YeAh
[purple]-Been called a tease: [blue] Ya
[blue] Gotten beaten up: [purple]- No
[purple]-Shoplifted: [blue] No
[blue] Put a body part on fire for amusement: [purple]- No
[purple]-Changed who you were to fit in: [blue] No AnD I nEvEr WoUlD
LAYER EIGHT
Favs...
[blue] Shampoo: [purple]- FrUcTiS
[purple]-Soap: HaWAIiAn GiNgEr BoDy WaSh
[blue] Color: [purple]- BaBy BlUe
[purple]-Food: ChIcKeN [blue]
[blue] Ice Cream: [purple]-ChOcOlAtE cHiP cOoKiE dOuGh
[purple]-Movie: [blue] RaDiO, sAvE tHe LaSt DaNcE, the notebook,blow,........
[blue] Book: [purple]- tuesday's with morrie
[purple]-Sport: [blue] HoCkEy
[blue] Piercing: [purple]-Girls-LiP Guys- EyE bRoW
[blue] Cartoon Character: [purple]-Spongebob
[purple]-Gum: [blue] Bubbilicious
[blue] TV Show]: [purple]-AmErIcAn IdOl, wIthOuT a TrAcE , house that 70's show
[purple]-Type Of Food: [blue] - NotHiNg
[blue] Fruit: [purple]-StRaWbErRiEs AnD pInEaPpLe
[purple]-Vegetable: [blue] CaRrOtS
[blue] Store: [purple]-AnYpLaCe WiTh HaIr StUfF
[purple]-Holiday: [blue] ChRiStMaS
[purple]--Season: [purple]-SuMmEr
LAYER NINE[
[purple]-Age you hope to be married: [purple]- WhEnEvEr It HaPpEnS
[purple]-Describe your Dream Wedding: [purple]- At NiGhT, uNdEr ThE sTaRS ETC……
[purple]-How do you want to die: [purple]- DrEaMiNG
LAYER TEN
In a guy/girl..
[purple]-Best eye color? [blue] It DoEsN’t MaTtEr
[blue] Best hair color? [purple]-WhAteVeR cOlOuR hE hAs
[purple]-Short or long hair: [blue] ShOrT
[blue] height: [purple]-DoEsN’t MaTtEr
[purple]-Best weight: [blue] I duNnO
[blue] Best articles of clothing: [purple]- boXeRs
[purple]-Best first date location: [blue] UmM dEpEnDs...
[blue] Best first kiss location: [purple]-AnYwHeRe HiS lIpS aRe
LAYER ELEVEN
[purple]-# of drugs taken illegally: [blue] 3
[blue] # of people I could trust with my life: [purple]-5
[purple]-# of Cd’s I own: ToO mAnY
[purple]-# of piercings: [blue] 5, BuT I wIlL GeT mY eYe BrOw DoNe AgAiN (including
ears)
-x-
[blue] - # of tattoos: [purple]-NonE yEt
[purple]-# of scars on my body: [blue] ToO mAnY
[blue] -# of things in my past that I regret: [purple]-losing myself
(·.¸(·.¸ ¸.·´) ¸.·´)
«´¨·.¸¸.~*~AyRiN~*~.·´¸¸¨»
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.|.last cigarette: 5 minutes ago
last kiss: now...muah
last cry: awhile ago
last library book checked out: who knows
personality disorders: Depression
last movie seen: the notbook
last book read: tuesdays with morrie and the notebook
last cuss word uttered: fuck
last beverage drank: malibou rum
last food consumed: don’t eat that much don’t remember
last crush: can't say
last phone call: annem
last TV show watched: soaps
last time showered: this morning
last shoes worn: sk8er shoes
last cd played: gavin
last item bought: coffee
last soda drank: sprite remix
last thing written: an IM
last key used: the space bar
last word spoken: smile
last sleep: feels like never
last im: My DaD
last sexual fantasy: lol my mind is too dirty for that
last ice cream eaten: cant eat it
last time wanting to die:I dOn’T wAnT tO dIe, I jUsT fEeL lIkE i Am InSiDe
last lipstick used: chap stick
last time dancing: yesterday
last show attended: spiderman two
I HURT: a little less everyday
I LOVE: my friends and family, JULIAN, vipers and music
I HATE: bad drivers and haters
I FEAR: people finding out about my past
I HOPE: that i get to be happy
I FEEL: crazy
I HIDE: my feelings
I DRIVE: all the time, so much freedom not anymore..use to
I MISS: being held
I NEED: to lose weight
I THINK: too much lol, I think that well I don’t know I am not in the mood for thinking
current music: regga jungle and reggae and gavin
current hair: it is wavy right now
current thing I should be doing: same thing I do everyday watch Julian
current desktop picture: Julian with a crooked hat
what do you most like about your body? My eyes
how many fillings do you have? 1
do you think you’re good looking? Sometimes
do other people often tell you that you’re good looking? Ya
do you look like any celebrities? No
words of wisdom: always be you no matter who tries to change you
i wrote ur name on a piece of paper but by accident i threw it away , i wrote your name on
my hand but it washed away, i wrote ur name in the sand ,but the waves wisped it away ,i
wrote ur name name on my heart and forever it will stay.....
[red]Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss,
[orange]and ends with a tear.
[blue]Don’t cry over anyone who won’t cry over you.
[green]If love isn’t a game, why are there so many players?
[red]Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave,
and impossible to forget.
[orange]You can only go as far as you push.
[blue]Actions speak louder than words.
[green]The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.
[red]Don’t let the past hold you back;
you’re missing the good stuff.
[orange]Life’s short. If you don’t look around
once in a while you might miss it.
[blue]A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover,
HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
[green]Some people make the world
SPECIAL just by being in it.
[red]BEST FRIENDS are the siblings God forgot to give us.
[orange]When it hurts to look back,
and you’re scared to look ahead,
you can look beside you and your
BEST FRIEND will be there.
[blue]TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
[green]Good friends are like stars.... You don’t always see them,
but you know they are always there.
[red]Don’t frown. You never know who is
falling in love with your smile.
[orange]What do you do when the only person who can
make you stop crying is the
person who made you cry?
[blue]Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them.
[green]Everything is okay in the end.
If it’s not okay, then it’s not the end.
[red]Most people walk in and out of you life,
only friends leave footprints in your heart.
~*~*~*~
* [blue] *
* GO *
* LEAFS *
* GO *
~*~*~*~
Think about this..
You may not realize it, but it’s 100% true.
1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in someway.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don’t like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don’t even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely
turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won’t get
it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they
know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Send
this letter to all the people you care about, If you do so, You will certainly brighten
someone’s day and might change their perspective on life, for the better. Think about
it.
[blue purple]I am//AyRiN
i think//tOo MuCh SoMeTiMeS
i know// MoRe THeN pEoPlE tHiNk
i want// To AlWaYs Be Me
i have// To MaNy EmOtIoNs
i wish// PeOpLe WoUlD sToP fIgHtInG
i hate// BeIng SaD
i miss// MiKe
i fear// Never being with him again
i feel// lonely
i hear// julian talking
i see// julian smile
i smell// baby powder
i crave// a hug
i search// for faith
i wonder// all the time
i regret// breaking up with mike
i love// mike and julian
i ache// all over
i long// for mike
i care// for julian
i always// tell people the truth
i am not// a lier
i believe// in myself
i dance// sometimes when I work out
i sing// all the time
i cry// when my heart is in pain
i do not always// understand
i fight// with colin all the time
i write// poems
i lose// my mind sometimes
i never// say never
i confuse// myself
i listen// to everyone
i can usually be found// listening to music and working out
i am scared// of dying alone
i need// mike
i am happy about// myself
i expect// everyone for who they are
i should// take my own advice more offten
Name: ayrin
Middle Name:Elizabeth
Nicknames: cutie, auntie shmayrin
Day You Were Born: tuesday
Birthday: july 10th
Sign: cancer
Birthplace: scarborough
Height: 5’4
Hair Color: brownish red..right now lol
Eye Color: Blue
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Heritage:schotish and irish
4 Words That Sum You Up: different. outgoing, understanding. strong
Bf/Gf: single
Clothing Style: what ever i put on
Are You Smart?: more then people know..lol
How Many Personalities Do You Have?: one i am always me
1. Have you ever smoked? everyday
2. Been drunk as hell? ya on 21st b-day and i will never live that down lol
3. Screwed someone of the opposite sex? yes
4. Screwed someone of the same sex? no
5. Shoplifted? used to
6. Lied? who hasnt?
7. Betrayed a friend? no
8. Been to jail? no
9. Smoked weed? can't answer that...
10. Done LSD? no
11. Done any other illegal drug? shooms and hash
12. Given oral sex? yes
13. Received oral sex? yes
14. Screwed something not of human race? HAHA no that’s fuckin sick
15. Screwed something not alive? eww like a dead person? ewww that is sick man.
16. Cheated on someone? No i have never
17. Used someone? no
18. Paid someone for sex? no i am not desprite
19. Been paid for sex? no
20. Played strip poker? yeah
21. Skipped school? ya a lot
22. Skipped school to get high/drunk? can't say..no
23. Danced naked? haha
24. Danced naked in public? no
25. Flashed someone? yeah
26. Mooned someone? of course
27. Kissed someone? yes
28. Kissed someone of the same sex? yes
29. Held hands? umm yes
30. Hugged someone? no never..lol...of course all the time.
31. French kissed? yes
32. Had sexual fantasies? well............
33. Had gay/lesbian fantasies? no
34. Stolen money? no
35. Stole money from family? no
36. Stolen drugs from family? no
37. Been convicted of a crime? no
38. Dated someone because you heard they were easy? no
39. Had someone date you because they thought you were easy? not that i know of
40. Been called a whore? yes
41. Been called a bitch? all tha time
42. Watched porn? yes
43. Taped porn? no
44. Watched porn you taped? no
45. Kissed someone while moving in a vehicle? Yes
46. Screwed someone while moving in a vehicle? no
47. Used sex toys? no
48. Tried to kill yourself? yes before
49. Tried to kill someone else? no
50. Told someone you hated them? Yes
51. Told someone you loved them and didn’t mean it? no
52. Has anyone told you they loved you the first day you started dating him/her? no
WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
001.kill: who me...no one
002.hear from: you know who you are
003.get really wasted with: annem
004.look like: myself lol
005.be like: me
006.avoid: a lot of people
007.kiss: john...lol
008.be with: somebody nice
LAST PERSON YOU...AND WHEN?
001.touched: touched how?
002.talked to: john
003.hugged: my mom
004.instant messaged: john
005.kissed: my nephew
006.who broke your heart: mike
007.Fought with: mike
008.You talked to on phone: annem
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