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“The essential quality of life is living; the essential quality of living is
change; change is evolution: and we are part of it.
“The static, the enemy of change, is the enemy of life, and therefore our implacable
enemy.”
~The Chrysalids by John Wyndham

“I’m not a concept; I’m just a fucked-up girl looking for my own peace of
mind. I’m not perfect.”
~Clementine, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

How can one begin to think that they could place even a portion of their true selves
into a little box on the internet? Anything I write here could be a lie, for all you know.


I have my own set of beliefs, and they are very strong, although they sometimes alter
slightly to encompass new concepts. I am not a religious person, although I am spiritual.

Lately, I have been rather introspective, and thus, somewhat quiet. The urge to get loud
will come again, and then I can be a much wilder person. I do that constant-change thing,
whether it be in my ways of dress, my hair, my mood, or whatever.
[gray]~edit~ the urge to get loud has arrived

As for physical aspects, I am what I am. I have a slight inclination towards pain (both
given and received) and thus, my piercings and tattoos come into being. I have a 16ga
centered vertical labret, a 10ga centered tongue ring, 8 ear piercings (a 16ga forward
helix, 3x14ga ear piercings, stretched and shrunk many times, 2x8ga ear piercings, and
2x9/16" ear piercings that are also up and down a lot), a 14ga VCH, a 14ga septum,
2x14ga cheek piercings, two tattoos on my left hand (astrological sign on thumb webbing
and symbol for goddess on pinky finger), a Betty Boop tattoo on my left hip, and a pink
ribbon tattoo on my left ankle. I also had a large flaming lotus flower done on my back
via skin removal and line-work scarification, followed by a skin removal smiley face on my
left middle finger, and a skin removal heart on my right middle finger. There are many
that I want to add to this, but I have to choose carefully because of work. My body is
just another canvas, so far as I can tell, and I will make it my own piece of art. And
yes, I have partaken in the ritual of suspension.

I believe firmly in “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all”
but sometimes I get a little cynical, and say things that are hurtful or cutting, often
without meaning them to be.

However, that does not necessarily mean that I will apologize, either. Regret and
self-loathing are two of the most un-sexy traits I have ever seen in a person, and they
often go hand-in-hand. I try every day not to be like that, although I sometimes fail.

Anything else that you wish to know about me, feel free to ask. I am not about to try to
give everything of myself away in this little box.[/gray]