I thought I knew where my life was headed . I was wrong . Life when you think you have it
figured out throws you a curve ball in the head right before you go to bed. My life has
changed and I look at the future as if its a road that is open to all possiblities. I
never saw this open road before not for a long long long long long time ago.
Its really confusing where you see your self before and see yourself now and look at the
distance and think to yourself ...and then look at other peoples distance between the time
and see things that you want , and that you need to do . Sometimes, I just feel like I
just don't care anymore its great the feeling of just utterly not caring carefree
happyness. I am not only carefree but on a high that I can't explain , I don't know if its
a good one or bad one yet because I need to see the future before I can judge. .... I
haven't felt like this before without some additive in my life which isn't needed anymore
to feel this way... I have figured out so much in so little time.
I pray everyday and think to myself . What do I want to accomplish today? Is this going to
get me to where I want in the future ? If yes then I need to do them .. If no its not
really needed . My thoughts have been really simple like a kid which to me is all i need
right now . I am so into myself its scary and more complete then ever because I honestly
can say I am a good person and trying to do the best for myself and the ones around me.
I feel like I haven't really dug into myself and figured me out in a long time.. and now
that I have I am going like a bullet full speed ahead with no regret on past memories for
they are just that the past the only thing worth thinking about is my future and how I
want to be which will make sure I stay on the path to where I want to go .
Amen brotha , Amen its 2:40 in the morning and I can't go to sleep because I have been
reading verses in the bible and questioning all reality .. and not only reality but
myself... in which has brought me to the present state of utter completeness and content
with my present situation but looking forward and seeing how close things are that I want
is just so close .. I cant wait .. I just can't wait
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