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WITH MY HEART I HOLD A MEMORY OF AN ANGEL WHO TOUCHED ALL AND SO MANY OF US. ELISE ROSS
KEMPINEN TAKEN FROM US CAUSED BY THE BEAUTY SOME CALL GODS LAND AND WONDERS. BUT WHOMEVER
OR WHATEVER CAUSED THE ACCIDENT WE HAVE ALL BEEN SADDENED AND LEFT HERE WITH JUST THE
MEMORIES. BUT SHE'S THERE SHE'S STILL WITH US AND FOREVER WILL BE. WE LOVE YOU ELISE AND
WE ALL KNOW YOU SEE IT FROM WHERE EVER YOU HAVE GONE. MARCH 2005



"The words that I wish I could find are the feelings I hold inside. The soro the
sadness. In the end the Love...Ur always with us."



MY DREAMS: Ever dream that there is something comming down on you and your struggling so
hard to hold it from covering you up? Like you see an opening but you’ve got to be so
incredibably strong.. Your holding this black from over your head that’s so insainly
huge.... I’ve had this dream since about 13 and in the last two years it’s faded away.. It
use to be an all the time thing for years now it comes up once in a great while normaly
when I’m stressin or being over comed by things inlife.. Sometimes I get the same feeling
of that dream in my life when awake normaly when facing hard challenges or so on.. Bla
anyways ha ha

Time for update... Shit where do i begin i’ll make it short for I have no feeling in
taking time to do this..

I have now been livin here in wisconsin for well over a year in a half. Changed Jobs 2-3
times from takin care of dissabled to walmart to where I’m currently at with the worlds
largest magazine printing company Quad Graphics.. Enjoyin it so far been promoted two
times but wont see it in my pay check till after january.. Kinda sucks been there over
half a year and my works gotten me nothin onthe money situation yet.. But that’s a big
company for ya.. We print like Playboy, crutchfield, US News, Teen US, all sorts of
magz... I’ve gotten out alot more with having this job and the money it’s given me.. I
wrecked my bran new truck had a few other negative things but hangin in there.. Oh yeah
any of you who know me and call me I’ve moved alot so here’s my new cellphone number
262-573-0101 give me a call sometime been a while... Well that’s the short summary of
mylife.. Peace..........

Because of the war and everything I just want to say yes I am an American but
over all I want to say that I am a Patriot most definetaly but not for America but for the
whole unity of the nations.. I think it’s bs that we can’t all find a happy medium and
create a stable world peace with just the minor problems all of us face everyday.. There
is so much to learn from each other and to gain why hate and why have war. I am for the
war right now because I agree that it will help bring to a peace in that area of the world
that could help spread a way we all can share. I’ve got my views on it all and you can
read my journal if you want to hear those.

Well as of Tuesday March 25 I’ll be living in Wisconsin. I’ve decided to take the
offer of a life time for me.. Luck came finaly thanks to a very special friend of mine..
I’m taking it cause I know things will be better this way and I can be who I am without
having to try so hard to make everyone happy.. I’m respected this way and I’ll be much
happier.. I luv you guys and I’ll check this as often as I can... Thank you for everything
all the help and the best of friendships..
Well I have been livin here, that special friend pff talk about a bitch... But
whateva she’s out of mylife as a friend in all ways.. Won’t get into the topic but yeah.
So I’m here in Wisconsin land of the cheese heads.. And well it really eats ass dude fa
real. I hate it here more than I hate fat bitches that don’t shower. Sorry bout that I’m
not a prick like that. But um Yeah so I really need to figure something out. I guess it is
def. better than michigan where i lived but I want better something different. I guess I
don’t know. Never happy I b.. Well That’s it for this update as of July 17, 03...

Since the fallout of purerave I still haven’t redone all i had on here before like the
list of people who have left me compliments and or had conversations with that i was
paying respect too. There were other things to I am sorry bout that.. You all are awsome
though...

March 8th, 2003 Well I’ve been doing some work to it I hope you all like it.. It’s not
what it was before or near it but it’s getting to be to a point that i’ll be happy
with...

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First Due respects.... I pray that my friend
John Pippo Rests In Peace where ever he may be in this world in
his life. We all were so young when you were taken away from us but the
love we had for you is held ever so much tighter.. We
love you and God willing I hope your in a better
place...

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It takes a minute to like someone, and hour to love someone, a day to hate someone, but it
takes a lifetime to forget someone.

~Reach for the moon & you’ll find yourself amongst stars~

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I’m 23 from Michigan. Living in Wis. I love techno, but also I love almost all music.. You
ever come on my comp and check the selection you would be like oh kewl, fag, awsome,
shitty, punk, old fart.. Seriously my taste in music goes also with mylife style way of
living and so forth.

I’m tan about 6ft been told I got beautiful brown eyes and good distinct facial features,
and am told it makes me a good looking guy.. That’s for everyone to decide besides me....
Alright somethin like that...

Won’t putt up with bitches so if your gonna cop sum attitude keep your shit to yourself..
We ain’t buyin non of that shit here... And for the few pricks out there who are going to
say dumb shit about comments or whatever the hell it will be leave your shit to yourself
too cause your oppinion to me don’t mean shit.. I’m not an asshole and I don’t like having
to be one. If I get into an arguement be ready cause that means I’m pist and it’s gonna
go for a long hall if you are up to testin it. I don’t like people who are
judgemental, people who think their better, people who are assholes to others,.. I
plain and simply do my best to get along with everyone I love people. I am not one
to pick sides when I get stuck in the middle I rather not be there or do that cause I
don’t wanna be hatin on anyone or have anyone hatin on me. That’s alot of me like I said
anything else let me know... I’m a pretty busy person so if I don’t talk to you all
that much it’s not that I’m ignoring you just busy. I work out 4 days a week got my
friends to spend time with and working and all that so I have time here and there
where I’ll pop in so..

Main points to tha bitches... Don’t cop no too good for people attitude. Don’t cop
some stupid bullshit period.. B Tru bout yourself and your fine wit me...

Main points to tha males.. Don’t come up on my purerave with no hard ass attitude.. One
thing you don’t know me probably never will unless your kewl like that and we meet up at a
club/rave to do some partyin with the women.. But don’t be tryin to trip me cause your ass
ain’t worth my time...

Thank ya...

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I honest to goodness love everything about falling in love and every thought about it..
I live and breath love I dream of it and when I wake up each morning it’s always there..
I’m a romantic and I can’t help it... True love is out there for us all somewhere....
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Love feels no burden,
thinks nothing of trouble,
attempts what is above its strength,
pleads no excuse of impossibility...
It is therefore able to undertake all things,
and it completes many things,
and warrants them to take effect,
where he who does not love would faint and lie down.
Love is watchful and sleeping, slumbereth not.
Though weary, it is not tired;
though pressed, it is not straitened;
though alarmed, it is not confounded...

- Thomas A. Kempis -

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We all want to fall in love. Why?
Because that experience makes us feel completely alive.
Where every sense is heightened,
every emotion is magnified,
our everyday reality is shattered
and we are flying into the heavens.
It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon.
But that doesn’t diminish its value.
Because we are left with memories
that we treasure for the rest of our lives.

- From the movie "The Mirror Has Two Faces" -

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Love comforteth like sunshine after rain.

- William Shakespeare -

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You don’t marry someone you can live with,
you marry the person who you cannot live without.

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No sooner met but they looked;
No sooner looked but they loved;
No sooner loved but they sighed;
No sooner sighed but they asked one another the reason;
No sooner knew the reason but they sought the remedy.

- William Shakespeare -

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Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easliy angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

- The Bible : 1 Corinthians 13:4 -

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WAR IS PAIN DEATH SUFFERING TEARS LOSS FOR A GAIN FOR
SOME
Journal Entry On Feb 21st

Ahhh I hate the whole fucking idea...... The idea of this war the idea of people
dying... No I honestly didn’t think about how there are people dying of war everyday or
anything till it came to being of the age I am and seeing my own friends and family going
into this stage we will be in....

My friend Mike Monette is stationed in Texas right now in the army with in a few
weeks if the US is to gain Turkey he will be on or near the boarder of Iraq.. God damn guy
has a fucking son... He got a divorce from his wife about a year ago but he loves that kid
with all his heart and I seen it in him tonight. But he’s a smart guy and he is doing what
his heart wants him to do... And I’ll always be here for him as a brother...

I was watching the movie "We Were Soldiers" Lastnight and I couldn’t help
but think of the lives that are going to be lost in this war on not just of the americans
but also the people of other countries... War doesn’t hurt anyone person but hurts all
sorts of us... Pain comes in so many ways and no matter what were all going to feel it..
Mothers, fathers, sons, and daughters are going to be lost there... People we love so
dearly and will always hold in our hearts... I’m so sorry for the people who have lost
family and friends in past wars.. I’ve never really thought of the percussions that this
is all going to cause... I cried seriously I’m a grown up man now and I know I am.. But
being a man shouldn’t stop a person from crying.. Being a man is being honest and open and
everything truthful.. I believe atleast.. But anyways I don’t know.. I pray this doesn’t
turn out to be as bad as my body is thinking it’s all going to be, no matter what it’s all
bad but...

I wrote this in thought of all my friends that will be going into this war to fight
for what we all have in our lives.. Their over there fighting for the US military but just
because it’s the US military doesn’t mean it’s not for the world.. Their fighting for each
of us... This is in thought of my friend Mike Monette army, Nanue Huelle marines, Jake
Phelps marines, AJ Olenketo army, Karen Bleise navy, My brother Bryce Averitt navy. And
for all the families in the US and around the
world....

Is there really a Heaven and Hell?

If so where would most people want to go and why? For this question I have my own reasons
for my choice some might be surprised to hear why and where. Nothing evil either... ha
ha