i like to make music wary vary much
you should here some that my friend lil mike and i have made at .....
www.myspace.com/creaturesthatsayyes
i would like to say to all my friends that i love them i dont say it as much as i should
and i would die for all of you.
i met the homeless guy on the weekend cuz after work i did not want to go home so i just
walked around the city. and this guy was so neat. he was telling me all these stories that
he had. he asked me to come to BC with him that day cuz his girlfriend just walked way
from him and he said to me that he did not think she was coming back. and i said that his
life must be grate to be able to just leave when he wants to and go any where. and he said
that his life sucked. that all he does is pan handle all day and he hates it. so i didn't
go with him. but it was fun talking to him. lol when i got up to day i was taking a dump
this morning and remembered a fear that i had when i was a kid. it’s a funny one so you
can laf. i was afraid not of falling in to the toilet but having an ass to big for the
toilet cuz it would look gross lol. i gess i dont ever have to worry about that eh. (For
those who do not know me and read this im fairly skinny that is why I have not worries)
dont use your brain. It may seem like a good Idea but once you find out what is going on.
It’s magic is gone and you grow up or go crazy depending on the extent of your knowledge.
Or maybe I just don’t have it all yet.
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WILLY WONKA
~~~THERE'S NO EARTHLY WAY OF KNOWING
WHICH DIRECTION WE ARE GOING
THERE'S NO KNOWING WHERE WE'RE ROWING
OR WHICH WAY THE RIVER'S FLOWING
IS IT RAINING
IS IT SNOWING
IS A HURRICANE A-BLOWING
BLEH!
NOT A SPECK OF LIGHT IS SHOWING
SO THE DANGER MUST BE GROWING
ARE THE FIRES OF HELL A GLOWING?
IS THE GRISLY REAPER MOWING?
YES! THE DANGER MUST BE GROWING
FOR THE ROWERS KEEP ON ROWING
AND THEY'RE CERTAINLY NOT SHOWING
ANY SIGNS THAT THEY ARE SLOWING!~~
last night i told my mom that if god turend a glass of water in to wine right in fron of
me and her i would become a born again christan...she sat and prayed with me for like
20min. nothing happend.....i am the shit of that earth. when i looked over at her she
looked so sad. i will never try to tell my mom that god is not real ever again. even if i
don't think that he is (and im not sure what i think about anything) but is you distroy
people's life bass what do they have...nothing. my mom need to think there is a god and
who am i to tell her there is not one.
are you all my dream? hmmm i know i can't ask you. of course you think your real that is
what i imagined you would say.
man there is another bigmike on PR (..BiGMikE..) he is mean i said we could be friends and
he told me to fuck off (in a nut shell). how do some people get so jaded? i'll never
know.
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak
often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. it can be anything you want,
either good or bad.
why sadness when there is nothing to be sad about?
From childhood's hour I have not been
As others were, I have not seen
As others saw, I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow, I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone,
And all I loved, I loved alone.
...
-by Edgar Allan Poe.
im so bord that is why i did this.
(x) BEEN DRUNK
(x) SMOKED POT
(x) KISSED A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX
(x) KISSED A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(_) CRASHED A FRIEND?S CAR
(_) BEEN TO JAPAN
(x) RODE IN A TAXI
(x) HAD ANAL SEX
(?) BEEN IN LOVE
(x) HAD SEX IN PUBLIC
(x) BEEN DUMPED
(x) SHOPLIFTED
(_) BEEN FIRED
(x) BEEN IN A FIST FIGHT
(_) HAD A THREESOME
(x) SNEAKED OUT OF MY PARENT?S HOUSE
(x) BEEN TIED UP (SEXUALLY)
(_) BEEN CAUGHT MASTURBATING
(x) PISSED ON MYSELF
(_) HAD SEX WITH A MEMBER OF THE SAME SEX
(x) BEEN ARRESTED
(x) MADE OUT WITH A STRANGER
(x) STOLE SOMETHING FROM MY JOB
(_) CELEBRATED NEW YEARS IN TIME SQUARE
(_) GONE ON A BLIND DATE
(_) HAD A CRUSH ON A TEACHER
(_) CELEBRATED MARDI-GRAS IN NEW ORLEANS
(_) BEEN TO EUROPE
(x) SKIPPED SCHOOL
(_) SLEPT WITH A CO-WORKER
(x) CUT MYSELF ON PURPOSE
(x) HAD SEX AT THE OFFICE (not my office)
(_) BEEN MARRIED
(_) BEEN DIVORCED
(x) HAD SEX WITH MORE THAN ONE PERSON WITHIN THE SAME WEEK
(x) POSED NUDE
(_) GOT SOMEONE DRUNK JUST TO HAVE SEX WITH THEM
(_) CHEATED ON MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER
(_) HAD SEX WITH MY BOSS
(_) DATED MY ROOMMATE
(_) BEEN FISTED AND/OR HAVE NEVER FISTED ANYONE
(_) THROWN UP IN A BAR
(x) SLEPT WITH AN EX
Take death for example
A great deal of our effort goes into avoiding it
We make extraordinary efforts to delay it and often consider
its intrusion a tragic event
Yet we'd find it hard to live without it
Death gives meaning to our lives
It gives importance and value to time
Time would become meaningless if there were too much of it
If death were indefinitely put off, the human psyche would end
up, well, like the gambler in the "Twilight Zone" episode
We Are The Middle Chilren Of History
With No Place Or Purpose
We Have No Great War
No Great Depression
Our Great War
A Spiritual War
Our Great Depression
Our Lives'
I was on the bus today and I saw some white powder on the seat next to me. It got me
thinking “what the hell is that?” then I thought it might have been skin flacks from some
gross person, or some sort of drug from some coke head (not that I mind coke). But then I
realized that it was the salt off the fries that I was sharing with a pretty girl. It made
me think that maybe everything is not as bad as I think.
05/27/05
by Boreees
05/27/05
a prelude to the wonderful end.
the end that marks beginnings.
the sobriety that marks the end of youth.
the madness that surrounds infinity,
bending, bending, screeching metal.
fucking futile beligerence...
affection bubbles to cynicism
happiness swells to coloid hunger.
today old graves are emptied,
to the skillets deep with blood.
our colour albums burn to black and white
in the drunken fire. drunk like the significant other.
we are happy to this hour,
to this hour scorned with pride.
the dark side of reflection
the bright side of the way.
shook by melencholy,
it’s yet another day.
Im sorry you don’t have to read this im just so bord.
1. Kissed your cousin: yep
2. Ran away: once but I only got to the porch and knew I had no place to run to.
3. Pictured your crush naked: I picture everyone naked
4. Skipped school: to much
5. Broken someone's heart: yes
6. Been in love: I don’t know.
7. Cried when someone died? No
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have? Yes
9. Broken a bone: no, not by mistake
10. Done something embarrasing: I must have but I cant think of any times.
11. Done a drug: more then one
12. Cried in school: Yes
WHICH IS BETTER
13. Coke or Pepsi: they taste the same...but coke cuz im Canadian
14. Sprite or 7UP: sprite I gess
15. Girls or Guys: girls (to have sex with and look at not to be)
16. Flowers or Candy: candy (flowers smell similar to leafs and they don’t taste as good
as candy)
17.long hair or short hair: don't care like them both
18. Blondes or Brunettes: there is no better one
19. Bitchy or Slutty: ummmm I really don’t know. Slutty I gess at least their friendly
20. Tall or Short: It doesn't matter
21. Pants or Shorts: pants
22. Night or Day: Night....
WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. What do you notice first: how attractive they are. (Maybe that is shallow but I can’t
help it how do I know their person unless I talk to them.)
24. Last person you slow danced with: Alex in the kitchen
25. Worst Question to Ask: didn’t I rape you once? (I have never raped anyone)
THE LAST TIME YOU...
26. Showered: today
27. Stepped outside: 11:47pm last night
28. Had Sex: Wednesday I think.
RANDOM
29. Romantic memory: laying next to this girlfriend I had thinking that I would be happy
never getting up. And just listening to her mown (cute like) in her sleep.
30. Your Good Luck Charm: my bunny hat.31. Person You Hate Most: I don’t think I really
hate anyone.
32. Best Thing That Has happened: the best thing that comes to mind right now is seeing
NIN in TO.
33. On your desk: microphone , FX-1 personal stereo digital effects processor, NIN tape.
35. Color: pink
36. Movie: the assassination of president nixon
37. Artist: Salvador Dali
38. Car: space car
39. Ice Cream: Cookie dough....? I don’t know there are so many good onez
40. Season: this summer was good.
41. Breakfast Food: bacon!
WHO
42. Makes you laugh the most: kyle
43. Makes you smile: megan
44. Can make you feel better no matter what: jen
45. Has A Crush On You: I used to think no one but I guess a lot of people do *shrugs*
46. Do You Have A Crush On: I have crush’s on lots of people. People you just float my
boat.
47. Who has it easier? Guys or Girls?: Guys (I love my penis)
48. Gives you A Funny Feeling When You See Them: bram
DO YOU EVER
49. Sit by the phone waiting for a phone call all night: no, it more like I hide from the
phone cuz people call me all the time ......sept for today.
50. Save AIM conversations: what is AIM? No.
51. Save E-mails: nope
52. Forward secret E-mails: nope
53. Wish you were someone else: yes
54. Wish you were a member of the opposite sex: sometimes but then I think about how good
my penis has been to me.
55. Wear perfume: oh yah. Girls get to smell so much better then guys. Why do girls get to
smell like fruit and boy can’t I hate musk.
56. Kiss: Yes
57. Cuddle: yes
58. Go online for longer than eight hours at a time: sadly
HAVE YOU EVER
59. Fallen for your best friend: yes
60. Made out with JUST a friend: yes
61. Kissed two people in the same day: yes
62. Had sex with two different people in the same day: yes
63. Been rejected: yes
64. Been in love: I don’t know
65. Been in lust: all the time.66. Used someone: yes
im not proud of doing things like
that.
67. Been used: yes
68. Cheated on someone: no
69. Been cheated on: yes
70. Been kissed: yes
71. Done something you regret: yes
WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
72. You touched: my mom
73. You talked to: My Dad
74. You hugged: ummm some girl I did not know her name
75. You instant messaged: jay
76. You kissed: beth
77. You yelled at: people in the hall (but jokingly)
78. You thought about: megan
79. Who text messaged you: some girl named Naomi (I don’t know her but I guess I look like
one of her good friendz.)
80. Who broke your heart: live
81. Who told you they loved you: my mom (she tells me alot)
DO YOU...
82. Color your hair: yes
83. Have tattoos: yes one.
84. Have piercings: yes (ears)
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no
86. Own a webcam: no
87. Own a thong: I wish
88. Ever get off the damn computer: not much when im at home.
HAVE YOU / DO YOU / ARE YOU...
89. Stolen anything: yes
90. Smoke: not cigarettes
91. Depressed: some times when im by my self thinking that is why im doing this.
Oh you thin insipid lullabies of compliance
Do we not see the ripping flesh of countless pretty creatures
When they become the food of my grotesque lust
All bodies require food
It's their right
Defiled
Defiled
Defiled are they
Those who remain at the surface do so at their own peril
Those who dive beneath the surface glorify the grotesque
Glorify the grotesque
Uprooting ugliness to be their heroic standard
Ugliness my flag
Ugliness my flag
Be warned you are marred
Misshapen
Measly
Your desperation is disfigured devotion
Beauty is the enemy
Acceptance of ugliness is the redemption of sanity
There is no beauty only ugliness
There is no glamour only ghastly blemish
All romance disfigured
All morals monstrous
All beauty our enemy
They are the elect to whom grotesque things bring only rapture
Genocidal chatter
Merely nodding
Ugliness is a form of genius
Can you hear me out there?
Can you hear me out there? Do you remember that one?
Ok, well, there's your message.
when people tell you to fallow your dreams they really mean restrict your dreams to
reality.
I believe that everyone has a god in some from. Wether it is church ,drugs, relationships,
etc. and right now if you don’t feel secure with you life its cuz there is an abstains of
your god. You will only truly be secure when you see that life has no purpose. And that,
that is fine cuz it is the gift of experience. The strong need no gods. (I im not strong)
lyrics for one of our new songs if you read this tell me what you think....
Now im a fuck.
And you’re a fuck.
And we’re all fucked.
And it fucking sucks.
He finds no absolution here.
Answer lies in broken mirror.
Abrupt alone no way to steer.
Avoiding family atmosphere.
The need to release I will rape.
Low environment supple state.
Feel bone marrow filled with hate.
This is how are our values rate.
My daddy feels all alone
and my dad brings the psychos home.
He fuck’s and burns with anger tone.
So I can only cry out stone.
And my dad feel all alone.
And my dad fucks the psychos home.
In the bed room secrets true.
Maybe I’ll be like dad too.
Now im a fuck.
And you’re a fuck.
And we’re all fucked.
And it fucking sucks.
Cuz im a fuck.
And you’re a fuck.
And we’re all fucked.
And it fucking sucks.
Do you want to fuck her fuck my mom.
Im a motherfucker and I’ll fuck my mom.
My mom holds on by christian thread.
My mom don’t know that christians dead.
She eats all the shit she’s fed.
And did just what the bible said.
the end.
ok so i was on the bus home and i needed some one to talk to cuz i had taken a bunch of
dex. so i started to talked to this girls that stood out from everyone else. And learned
more about her in this short time then I have learned about some of my new friends to
date. I also started getting the guy behind me in the conversation. Speed is my favored
all forms. I know it is really bad for you. But it make me the best I can be. They only
thing am bad at when im on it is eating and sleeping. Why must every thing so good be so
bad for you?
Be who you are and say how you feel, cause those who matter don’t mind; and those who
mind
don’t matter. - Dr. Suess
allow yourself to be filled with the possibility that, in fact, 'things' are really
only thoughts born into a misguided existence.
Peace can only come to pass when pure evil has made its mark.
by Miss_Molly
I hope you choke on the rose pettles as they fall to the ground from your mother’s
outsretched hand... suckle the breast a little more you heathen.
Insulant fool, how dare you attack my character that way, may no human rip apart the curse
I put on your heart.
Find peace and comfort in your eternal damnation, for you will not find it elsewhere.
Wander the roads unkept for all eternity. Wonder about the consequences of the words
spoken, for they can not be taken back.
Respect and Honour are virtues for which you have no capacity to hold. You will only
experience Dishonour, and death will not come to release you.
I giggle at your torture, for you have no understanding of the mysteries held in wisdom.
You have no understanding of looking past now and realizing the consequences of your words
and actions... when I lay peaceful you will still cry out for your mothers breast.
Wander dirty little soul, and wonder of the mistakes you made.
end.
wierd is not real. it’s a perception. a scale of judgement where there is no true base to
measure from.
"Do not be too moral. You may cheat yourself out of much life. Aim
above morality. Be not simply good; be good for something."~Henry David Thoreau
"All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance,
nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion, and desire."~Aristotle
Streamline insufficiency gathered by the blind hands.
Kings with crowns of thorns placed not on the head but around the lemmings wrist.
Freely and with will. smothered by the lost realization of bondage.
Apathetic teeth marks around the border cage of freedom.
There is a new word for slave and it’s spelt E-m-p-l-o-y.
Stationed index master sound flowing from chapped bleeding lip institutionalized.
We bathe in red from other units main cables stationed by the tables.
Lounging room now a dinning room we bath in fogs of death mist.
Half price scatters vexation deeper into the back in to the fade of itch.
Sitting on the edge of your invest nostalgic with reminder shocks to keep the fear in
place.
No money down limited time only all sales final terminal mark up for distraction.
Now, now, now, a lesser venerate flooded with chafe that we swallow farther then we
recollect.
Trust, naive united pull off to the beginning of the end in gift wrap and warming smiles.
Still the same kiss from the decrepit oral bomb drop and humanities dilapidation orbiter.
Fetal environment kept safe and informed by the omphalos cord food ingested by the poison
mouth.
Presented be hind the wood and wire.
Seething prayer and preaching lies magnified and diversified outputs electrical
technology.
Steel and brick cover the wondering eyes of the lemmings.
Sheltering them from the harm of truths condition less greed blanket.
Even with no practice, training provided on T.V. low.
All lined up under foreshadowing of the lemming show.
Gunshot wound bellows out smoke of our children.
Red fog rises breathing stout the chest hole of our dead.
The lice that remove unwanted substances from. Flutters mother that eat the ash’s come.
Flood of hair and bone perambulating over mass homicide coalition pointless flowers dyed
of sulphuric air.
And the curtain rise and the new ones stand on fresh soil rot.
Force fed oral bomb bottle barrel cocked on anchor of maggot.
Gassed glazed eyes and blank expression to no face’s on the staring faceless lemming.
Directed to the megaphone lamp setting the lemming show and seeping it’s smoke.
We act as though comfort and luxury were the chief requirements of life, when all that we
need to make us happy is something to be enthusiastic about. ~ Charles Kingsley
Thanx so much to Heather for showing me how to slow down in life and that life really
should not be so complex. She would not approve of me saying this but, she is truly a
human amidst humans. Im so glad I have you as a friend. We may never find are bliss but
after all the rocks you step on now I hope you get the closest thing to bliss there is for
the rest of your days.
Tortured angel Tortured angel with, wings of ash formed from the earth dirt.
Still the sulphur sent is covered with a temptress’s weald.
As if she was unaffected anguish tossed with a truck hit and astir victims.
She holds her own. Knowing there is no facilitate.
Fallowing the strings almond-shapes and other twists & terns faithful that all thing
become strait.
A light amidst the dark, a street lamp along the cliff side.
Will a soul of chipped rock. And scars that are now stronger then the normal flesh never
been touched.
Tortured angel I pray for your seventh heaven.
As this one turns its back on you.
You grab the devil by the horns and plunge them in to your chest daring him go
substantially worse and deeper.
Tortured angel I pray for you. But my prayers go to no one with hands or ears to lend.
When we only have are self’s are death is just for us and no one can share.
Lets talk bliss. Every one has there own idea of what there bliss would be. most people
ask way to much of it. At least that’s what I think. The only thing anyone really deserves
is death, and we’re all going to get it. When I ask people “what would you have in your
bliss” most of the time it such an extravagant thing that they imagine. For me when I
picturer my bliss all I see is me and another person. Sitting in a room recovering after a
long night of drugs. With nothing now nothing to say to each other. But nothing would need
to be said. Because they were not worried about what each other where thinking and if they
where having a good time or not. They would know that there was no place more that each of
them would want to be then there with that person. Utter acceptance. That is what I want I
want. That is my bliss. Is that so much to ask? Maybe.
Angel star dust
Attach support on feared things.
Threaded incubus.
Selects humans so perfectly.
Angel star dust.
Orbiting for venom.
Attempt to communicate.
Lips sowed shut to insure.
Mind will not escape.
But in thinking of who to give it to I came across a problem of what is real.........
Maybe you can help:
Do you believe in love?.......if so what evidence do you have of it?
"things are so much better said inside my head. even then, it's like...nothing"
my friend meg said this she is so poetic and she dosen't even know it
Creativity is like a good fruit, from the trees planted in our mind,
The ones, that have a fertile mind, plant to feed themselves.
The ones, that don't have a fertile mind, are like starving crows,
feeding themselves with the fruits from other creative minds.
I believe I will die an unpleasant Death. Not because I deserve it, but because it's what
I wish upon others.
But, at the same time, all I wish for others is happiness.
good=bad
always remember,
you cant spell [disfunctional]
without the word [fun]
Ok so if reality is what we see. But we can not trust every thing that we see to be true,
then the only real reality is truth. But if that is true than how do we ever really know
the truth if we can only see through the eye of our reality?
Feb 28 Aries (March 21-April 19): Your mind flits from one idea to another this morning,
and any suggestion starts you in a new direction. The weird part is, at the end of the
day, all of the seemingly unconnected facts line up to point to one thing. (i am god)
I just remain to say that these human creatures, these disgusting beings disgust me so
much, them and their pathetic emotion.
But as much as I cannot, I am only human, and I disgust myself in having to share such
living aspects with such vile creatures.
But at the same time, I contradict everything I just said by saying that I also find them
to be intriguing and beautiful.
Konrad Adenauer said, "We all live under the same sky, but we don't all have the same
horizon."
I stuck my hand in her back and grabbed her spine....or at least I thought I did. “No mike
your just seeing things again.” I thought to myself. And it was true my hands are in front
of me and spotless.....or maybe I just took it back. Ms. Peters (the person I earlier
referred to as “her”) was a nice lady after all, and she does not really deserve to have
her vertebra ripped out while she is scribbling a note for the call on the black board.
But she should not be a teacher. She is so dumb, at least in my opinion. But im still not
even sure what class this is, Which is partly my fault. I have such bad memory, but so
does “she”. I think Ms. Peters might have don’t crake before she wanted to be a teacher.
That might be me just stereotyping her because she is part native. As much as I don’t like
to do that I cant escape it. Maybe that is why I spared her. The conflict of being
effected by anyone else other then my self makes me sick, and im still not 100% sure that
every one and every thing is just a thought of mine. I could just be crazy. But if she is
just my manifestation then killing her would be killing a part of myself, and I cant do
that yet. Not because I have some grater purpose but because im afraid too. So for now she
will live.
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atramentous, obsidian, sloe;
grey. ash, argent, cloud, dove, iron, lead, mouse, pearl, shade, shadow, silver, slate,
smoke, somber, stone, gunmetal, cinereous, fog;
blue. aquamarine, ultramarine, azure, baby, beryl, cerulean, cobalt, cornflower, cyan,
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nut, oak, ocher, puce, russet, rust, saddlebrown, sand, sepia, sky broom, soil, sorrel,
burnt, toasted, tan, tawny, tumbleweed, umber, wheat, earth, caramel, sienna, mud, bark,
parchment, tea, titian, topaz, bistre, almond, henna, fuscous, fulvous, spadiceous,
musteline, roan, bronze;
green. ivy, jade, kelly, khaki, lime, malachite, moss, olive, pea, peridot, pine,
absinthe, apple, aquamarine, beryl, bottle, chartreuse, emerald, forest, grass, sage,
sea,
verdant, hunter, clover, leaf, mint, serpentine, fir, mignonette, resedea, shamrock,
viridian, virescent;
yellow. aureate, buff, blonde, canary, carmine, citrine, citron, cream, cornsilk,
fellis-flower, fire, flaxen, gold, golden, goldenrod, ivory, jasmine, lemon, madder,
ocher, old ivory, platinum, saffron, sallow, sand, straw, sulfur, sunlight, tawny, topaz,
tow, grain, butter, sulphur, brimstone, amber, carbuncle, crocus, meline, jaundice, gilt;
orange. apricot, brass, burnt, cadmium, carrot, coral, fingerroot, mandarin ocher,
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shocking, hot, sunrise;
purple. amethyst, grape, violet, wine, periwinkle, damson, mulberry, healer, heliotrope,
lavender, lilac, livid, magenta, maroon, mauve, mulberry, orchid, pansy, plum,
pomegranate, puce, purpure, royal, perse, solferino
red. amber, angry, aniline, bittersweet, blood, blush, brick, caldron, carmine,
carnation,
cherry, cerise, claret, copper, coral, crimson, fire, flame, flush, garnet, hyacinth,
indian, jasper, magenta, maroon, port, rouge, ruby, ruddy, russet, rust, sanguine,
scarlet, terra cotta, titian, tomato, vermilion, fire engine, cardinal, robin, wine,
incarnadine, murrey, burgundy, dahlia, bloom, ferruginous, carnelian, auburn, lava,
magma;
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cotton, fair, fleece, foam, frost, glacier, ice, ivory, lily, linen, milk, mist,
mother-of-pearl, platinum, seashell, smoke, snow, snowy, stark, swan, tooth, winter,
paper, ghost, daisy, dove, pale, parchment, calcimine, stone, porcelain, pure;
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