| Bio: |
I'm baaaaaaack... Just got outta rehab. By got out I mean they threw me out for smoking
pot, but the important thing is that I no longer = sketchbag. Huzzah.
I always wonder what the hell you're supposed to write in these things. I'm 19, I live in
the west end, I just finished first year university and I'm doing whatever it takes to
survive until I feel like going back for more. I went to my first rave on February 27-28,
2004, and then raved from March to October of 2005 until I went to rehab (of my own
volition). I don't really believe in trying to fit a description of oneself in a box of
text. Not to glorify humankind or humans, but we're much more complex than that on even
an organic level so let's give ourselves some more credit. We're extremely advanced
organic machines... now convulse to the whims of your desire/instinct/pills/other/any
combination of the four.
Here are some things I like:
Music: Mostly metal, but I like pretty much anything that... well, isn't mainmstream. I'm
not trying to be different in some silly attempt to stand out, but most popular music just
doesn't thrill me. My favourite band is Rammer, a local underground thrash metal band
that just... well, to each their own, but Rammer kicks every ass there is to kick, and
some that never existed.
Movies: Weird/funny movies are my favourite. I like a combination of both, but I'll find
myself laughing surprisingly hard at stuff like American Pie, and I've shown stamina for
films that most people just don't have the patience for. Taste in TV is similar, although
I have a cartoon obsession that I probably should have outgrown. Oh, INVADER ZIM kicks
ass!!!
Books: I don't read as much as I should, but I'm a fan of political commentators like
Michael Moore and Jon Stewart. My favourite author does have to be the late, great Hunter
S. Thompson for his generally skewed/twisted perspective and flashes of undisputable
brilliance.
People: My old teacher Mr. Csoli (socialist agnostic who supported the concepts of the
hippie movement), my friend Katelyn (without her, I don't think I would've regained my
self-respect), and an assortment of other people including but not limited to Chiggs,
Josh, Donald, Tasha, Christine, Earl and many others. You all rock... or rave, whichever
is better.
Miscellaneous: Interesting drugs, RPGs, acting, intelligent conversation, some sports,
giving backrubs, rambling about 'swine' and other assorted assholes, seeing pretty girls
smile, walking long distances late at night for the sheer hell of it, and knocking
conceited fuckers down a few pegs.
My profile name means 'helping bear' in some ancient Scandanavian tongue. My friend and I
took acid and that was the name he gave me because I'm generally bear-like in appearance
and... well, I have a generous streak and will do pretty much anything for someone in
need. I think it'd be pretty lame if it weren't in the language of the vikings
(long-haired warriors with an appetite for strong drink and women... my kind of blokes I
think)
I would like to note that I used to go to raves for the drugs and people (I prefer to meet
a couple of people and get to know them well rather than meet 20 people who I won't talk
to much. Please don't brag about your lengthy rave book, it's impressive to others
perhaps, but just annoying to me) but now it will be more for the music and only some of
the people. The music is still basically background noise, but it's good in some
circumstances. Still, If you ask me about specific DJs or the specific kind of rave music
at an event, please don't be shocked or insulted if I get confused. It was the drugs at
first, but now I don't know what my excuse is.
Oh yeah, as for the drugs, I am an advocate of responsible drug use. I want to remind all
you heads out there to take good care of yourselves and the people around you. I can't
say what you should or shouldn't do, but when the people around you are terrified for your
mental and physical well-being it might be time to take a good look at what you're doing
and reconsider your relationship with 'the drugs'. Once in a while, just stop and take a
good look around, and then take a good look at yourself. How can you make yourself and
the world around you a better place? I haven't done that for a long time (if ever), and
it sure hasn't gotten me very far. The people I care about are worried about me, and I'm
alienating myself from my friends because I'm losing the ability to connect with them
without using drugs. I've been walking a road that only leads to self-destruction, and
even if most people don't give a shit, a few people do and it's terrible that I would give
them cause to suffer. It's almost as if I hurt myself as punishment for hurting others by
hurting myself. Pretty vicious cycle, huh?
Random Quotes (actually mine):
"If there's one thing I know, it's that I should know better."
"A woman is only as good as the man she can destroy."
"We are alone in our own experience."
"The fact that we will die is the only thing that we all have in common. The rest is
up to us to discover."
"If there is a God, he (she/it) must have wept after creating her, knowing that he
could never again create something so beautiful."
"My goal in life is to be a case study in an advanced psychology textbook."
Oh, and a few things that I think seriously need to be said (if not taken to heart. Your
call of course).
1) Don't take drugs like acid, shrooms and other drugs of the sort too often (don't take
anything too often, but psychedelics are dangerous for different reasons). They can drive
you 3/4 of the way up the wrong wall, and by the time you're there they just won't have
the same strange and mystical effects they once had. As far as I'm concerned,
psychedelics are special and should be treated as such.
2) Don't hit on people who say they're of an incompatible sexuality. Either they're not
interested or they're actually not attracted to your sex, so knock it off. It's stupid,
annoying, and not even that fun to watch.
3) All you cocky assholes stop bragging about your stupid shit. Seriously, life is not a
competition to one-up the next dude. I've got people bragging about how many people they
meet at raves and how they're the proverbial 'man' and about how they can do just about
anything. In case no one told you, bragging makes you look like an asshole. What am I
saying 'look like'?
4) Show people respect unless they're disrespecting you or someone else. I get
disrespected for standing down when I'd rather not cause a problem and I see a lot of
people just looking down on others in general. Stop it, it's what's wrong with the world
and if you add to this world's problems... well, this place is screwed up enough without
you. Maybe, just maybe, the world would be a better place if we all showed each other
some basic, fundamental, human respect.
5) When getting involved with a person (nudge nudge, wink wink), please make sure you give
the whole situation a LOT of serious thought. Don't just go for the first piece of tail
that comes along, don't go playing with people's hearts, and don't try and kid yourself
when things aren't working out. How much heartbreak and suffering could be avoided if we
just stopped to think about what we were doing and who we were doing it with (or to)? Not
like I'm an expert on the subject, but I managed to recognize when I shouldn't be trying
to do when I can't even get my own shit together. Not like I'm against one-night stands,
or giving relationships a chance, but you gotta know when to give something up for the
greater good.
Still it's hard. Take care of yourselves, and each other (seems like an appropriate line
here, since I have to deal with all sorts of Jerry Springer type drama).
Whoo, me and my ranting. Maybe Josh should have named me 'ranting bear'... or 'raving
bear', which would have a semi-witty double meaning. DAMN YOU AND YOUR UNFLATTERING
NICKNAMES JOSH!!! DAMN YOU!!!
Oh yeah. PLURR!!!!!! |
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