1. What do you want to accomplish with your life in the next 10 years?"
I just want to go to bed every night happy with myself.
There are things I want to do but I’ve learned that you can’t make plans set in stone.
Things happen no matter what you do or how hard you try to make them come to life. I want
to go with the flow while maintaining and improving on my happiness, my health, and my
self-respect.
2. Should peopel develope significant friendships with people who are more than 15 years
older/younger than they are, and why or why not?
I think it’s absolutely imperative. I joined a running club when I was 17 because I had no
cross country team at my school. I was the youngest by about 20 years at least. They all
became surrogate parents and grand parents. Sometimes my coach from the club (who was
completely pro bono) would pay for my race registration, or make sure I got a free tshirt
or something. They would make sure I had a pace group that was right for me, they always
had food and drink even after a practice run, and best of all they always pushed me and
encouraged me to keep trying harder and longer distances. We used to have club meetings
once a month and a group of about 16 of us would sit in the pub after, eating nachos and
bullshitting for hours. They even protected me from getting kicked out of said pubs most
of the time
They are truly my family even though I’ve been out of the scene for a
while. I wouldn’t have known anyone at the races without them. I wouldn’t have been able
to do the Island Race Series, two triathlons, and two half marathons within 6 months of
starting running and before graduating high school if I hadn’t had such wonderful people
supporting me.
For others, developing friendships like this is a priceless way of getting a perspective
you might normally not get. Hopefully in most cases wisdom comes with age, but if not
wisdom than experience. These are invaluable, invaluable things.
3. What 5 things do you enjoy most about life and why?
In no order:
Relationships - because I just came through a hard time and it was easy to see who was
staying there for me. Recently I had the chance to say to my friend just "I know
you’ll be going through a hard time coming up, and if you ever need a break or you need to
have coffee or a chat or you need help with the move or if you want to go out and do
something to forget about things..just give me a call." I can’t do anything more for
him than that because I can’t fix other people but I can tell them I’ll be there for them
like they were for me.
Nature - because it keeps me connected to my God. Normally my faith is only in my head
because it’s something I think about constantly but don’t talk about with others and I
don’t know a lot of Christians I see very often. Seeing the mountains on the horizon, or
being really pissed in traffic and just having the WORST time and then looking up to see a
bird gliding or the sun breaking from the clouds is like meeting God’s eyes and exchanging
smiles.
Music - because writing is the most incredible way I’ve found of freeing yourself of
problems. When I write them down it helps to define them, then I look at them and it helps
for some reason to see the words, then I close the page and that little defined problem
now bottled in sort of a poetic code gets left in a book on the shelf.
Nothing can change your mood faster and I don’t enjoy making anything else more.
Animals - Something happens. Katrina gets mad. Throws things. Starts to cry. Goes to
bedroom. Sees Nicky sleeping peacefully in a little sunbeam on the floor. Katrina melts.
Morphs into a puddle of pink love hearts.
The road behind me - Memories, things I’ve overcome, things I didn’t overcome, things I’ve
done well, and things I’ve not done very gracefully.. all of it funnels into what makes me
me today. I’m proud of it, and I hope I always will be, though I haven’t always been. I
think quiet and self-reflection are really key to one’s development. I’m lucky, growing up
mostly as an only child, and now living alone has given me ample time to get my shit
straight. Recently my battle has been being a depressed person not taking anti
depressants. I want to develop the will power and the awareness so I can say "I’m
starting to feel like x." then take a step back and say to myself "You don’t
really want to feel like x. This is just a bunch of hormone and chemical levels spiking.
You’re fine." It’s tough and I don’t know if I will be able to be a functioning
person like that but I’m going to try and if I succeed then I’m that much stronger for
being able to control myself.
4. What 5 things do you enjoy least about life and why?
Human nature
Loss of freedom. I don’t even like getting trapped in bathrooms with sticky doors.
Intolerance.
Spicy peanut sauce. Ruins udon and chicken.
Arrogant/brash/slutty/cocky teenagers who haven’t seen shit yet. Sometimes people need to
go through something hard in order to open their eyes.
5. What do you think my deal with Phaedel is?
I don’t know but I don’t like it!
No I have no idea...I just got a protective notion. Moom is a lady who I have known for a
year but she knows me better than many of my friends who I’ve known for much longer. I’m
grateful for her and the nice things she says and the funny stories she has from work.
You know how it goes..
Oh, if anyone has the following albums or parts of them and are able to send them to me
could you let me know? I’m trying to replenish my mp3 collection since reformatting and
I’m not smart enough to know how to use the Kazaa Chat thing.
Nirvana - (anything! I have 0 Nirvana mp3s now)
STP - Core, Vatican Gift Shop
Soundgarden - Superunknown
Big Wreck (anything from either album)
Beastie Boys - To the 5 Bouroughs
Foo Fighters - One by one
Probot
Modest Mouse
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