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I have this weird thing wrong with me...I no longer feel the need to find true
love to be happy. As I am now growing up in many different ways, I have found a lesser
desire for others to validate my existance. That makes me feel better.

I normally get stuck in sticky situations....and can't make up my mind......

I am a Gemini. That explains it.

I smoke and drink and do drugs. I also go to work everyday now, where as before I
was smokin' and drinkin' and doin' drugs while going to SCHOOL everyday. Man, do I miss
highschool.

I was in love with a man...who shattered my reality. But I have recovered old and new
pieces. He taught me things I couldn't have found any other way. For that I am greatful.
For missing him, I feel shame. For being happy I'm gone? I feel happy.

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LIKES:

I used to be addicted to coffee, but hardly not at all anymore> Marine Biology and
anything to do with the water, ocean, mermaids...Nature>the starry sky at night>The city
lights at night>animals>one on one with someone cool>Guitar Hero!>horror
movies>reading>being spontaineous>coca cola with no ice>swimming>playing pool>playing hide
and go seek in the dark>MUSIC!!!>chineese food>pretty girls>poetry and writing
poetry>driving with the stereo all the way up>Actin' a foo>
parties>driving and playing sex>dark and scary things>Halloween>singing>Scrabble>fucking
around in the mall>The Happy Tree Friends>Anarchy>skaters>PUNKS>guys with thier own
style>guys with long hair>insomnia>
halucination from sleep deprivation>staying away from home>concerts>Cheez-it’s>medication
of anyones>traveling>trying something for the first time> cartoons>cars>people like me in
at LEAST one way>being touched (by certain ppl)>
and hanging out with the guys.

DISLIKES

WATCHING TV>GAME SYSTEMS....except some Nitendo and 64>bad personal hygyne>working in
front of people>being lied to or stolen from>Puddle Of Mudd and Courtney Love>
country>preps>rap(the newage shit-I like oldschool)>narcs>being bored>people who talk too
much>spinich>
abnoxious tightwods.>

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Name: Justine
Middle Name: why?
Nicknames: JJ, Roxee, Jess, Dumbass, Big J, The Terminator, Pinkie
Birthday: 06-03-88
Sign: Gemini
Birthplace: Shawnee Mission Ks.
Height: 5'9"
Hair Color: Blond top and brownish black bottom.
Eye Color: Brown
Righty or Lefty: Righty
1 word that sums you up: WHAT??!!
Bf/gf: Rephrase that lol.
Are you smart?: I used to be. I became dumb though.
How many personalities do you have?: A few.

Have you ever...

Been so drunk you passed out: Na, I pass out when I want to.
Put a body part on fire for amusement: No
Been hurt emotionally: Yes
Cried over someone of the opposite sex :Yes
Been arrested: Yes
Wanted to tell someone you loved them: Yes
Kept a secret from everyone: Still am
Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yes
Had a crush on a teacher: No
Been on stage: Yes
Stole a car: Yes
Been regretful of something: I have no reason to regret anything in life...it all happens
for a reason

FAVORITES

Shampoo: The cheap dollar store kind
Soap: The shampoo from the dollar store
Color: Black
Food: I hate food-but I suppose it would be Spaghetti-O's and Chinese
Movie: The Little Mermaid lol
Ice cream: No.
Non-alcoholic drink: Coke
Alcohol: PBR
Person: Justin
Vanilla/chocolate: Your mom
Sweet/sour: Sweet AND sour
Sport: HOCKEY!!!!
Hugs/kisses: meh.
Type of music: Black Metal, Death Metal, Hardcore, Speedcore, Speed Metal, Melodic Metal,
Grunge, Metal, New Metal Hard Rock, Techno, Electronica, Trance, Classic Rock, Punk, Soft
rock, R&B some days, old school rap.
Piercing/tattoos: No favorites, but I like mine

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

God: Yes
Satan: Yes
Religion: Yes.
Yourself: Depends.
Your friends: Some of them.
Santa Claus: I AM santa clause (childhood incident)
Tooth fairy: Yes but she is one of Tinkerbell's slutty expensive whores, I've had to pay
double the last year for her to take my teeth!
Aliens/UFOs: Maybe.
Destiny/fate: Sometimes
Love: Yes
Ghosts: Yes
Angels: Kurt Cobain counts

LIFE

Do you have one: I tend to think so sometimes
Do the dishes or leave them in the sink: Do them and once a week leave em
Who do you go to for advice: People suck I talk to the man who lives in my mouth named
Tony
What’s the best feeling in the world: Self inflicted pain...Inflicting pain on others,
making someone's day, and being outside with the sun on your face.
Worst feeling: Love and or burning alive.
What’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex: style
What book had the most influence on your thinking: Book? umm....I dunno..I've read a lot
of those things.
What band has the most influence on you: In Flames.
Favorite thing to do: 1. SKATE PARK. 2. Slapping some headphones on walking in the middle
of the ghetto in the middle of the night. It's a rush. 3. Be home alone, cleaning the
house with the stereo cranked with some metallll.
What are you doing right now: Needing to plug in my cell phone..
Who sent this to you: I stole it from Zim
What did you think of the survey: Another thing trying to get my personal
information

Five People I Enjoy The Company Of:

1. Justin.
2. Aaron
3. Deanna
4. Mike
5. My Dad & Brother

Nine Things I Want To Do Before I Die: (in no particular order)
1. Graduate Highschool
2. Own all of Nirvana's cds
3. See my step-brother's again
4. Have at least one kid
5. Have a good job that I love
6. Travel to all my predesignated destinations
7. Model
8. Write a book
9. Actually find out who cares.

Eight Things I’m Wearing:
1. Black and Blue pants with 10 pockets.
2. black/gray sparklyG- string
3. My gear (braclets, necklaces)
4. Blue-green bra
5. Black beater
6. Black fingernail polish
7. black eyeliner
8. black hoodie with patches.


Four Songs On My Mind:
1. In Flames: Evil In A Closet
2. Offspring: Now That You've Gone Away
3. Killswitch Engage: My Curse
4. ICP: Hocus Pocus

One Person I Love More Than Any Other:
God

>I am: missing someone I shouldn't.
>I miss: my party life. My childhood, simple days..
>I want: a way to succeed, and a way to let go.
>I have: decided I have no idea what I want.
>I hate: my fear of death.
>I fear: death
>I play: air guitar cause it feels cool..knowing I suck at my bass.
>I hear: that same song in my head over and over again..
>I care: way less than I pretend to.
>I smile: because I know someone loves me.
>I wonder: if things will ever iron out.
>I love: my friends, my family, and the life I've had.
>I messed up: more things than I should have.
>I think: maybe someday I can be saved.
>I always: forget what I've done or said.
>I am not: proud of being scared to tell you my real feelings.
>I dance: when I want to be goofy or am jammin' when no one is around
>I sing: anything out loud for the smile of people or the comfort within myself.
>I talk about: things that make me happy.
>I cry: hardly ever now.
>I spilled: so much alcohol on myself.
>I wish: I could find peace within myself.
>I keep: on hoping for another chance.
>I am not always: honest with myself..
>I can: make most people smile.
>I can’t: get past my subconscious fears.
>I write: poetry to express hate, love, fear and loss.
>I win: so hardcore.
>I lose: everything I come to love and hold onto..
>I smell: something weird actually.......
>I confuse: alot of people...
>I need: to lose some weight and quit my job. I NEED TO TRAVEL.
>I should: receive more than I get.


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~I Just Want To Be With You~
by Rowanangel99
(To Mercurynight)
As summer comes
And the cold days die
The moon shows its face
My heart howels to the moon crying out
"Come To Me And Let Me Hold You Close"

-If I could
I would wish on every star
For you to be closer to me
And the snow melts and the day comes near
I sit in my room thinking of only you
When you come, I will run to you
And Hold you close to me

-I Just Want To Be With You
Holding You Close
So I Can Feel Your Heart Beat With Mine
I just want to hold you
I want to be with you forever
Until the end of time

-If I could
I would wish on every star
For that special day to come

-And when that day comes
Nothing shall part our hearts
For they are locked together
Forever

-I Just Want To Be With You
Holding You Close
So I Can Feel Your Heart Beat With Mine
I just want to hold you
I want to be with you forever
Until the end of time.
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"I took their smiles and made them mine, I sold my soul just to hide the
light, and
now I see what I really am - a thief, a whore, and a liar."

---Amy Lee
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[gray]U CAN'T TRUST WHAT A STRIPPER SAYS.
SHE WORKS AT THE GENTLEMENS CLUB.
HER NAME IS CHRISTAL.

P.S.
SHE HAS SEX IN THE CHAMPENGE ROOM
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Everything I write on here, becomes more words on paper..a blinking cursor on a
screen..another deafening scream so silent it's deadly...